I love Adoration. I really love it. I don't go very often any more for a variety of reasons, but when I do, I'm usually able to open my mind and heart and as I pray the Rosary a mantra-like fashion, I am able to receive what I need.
We all fight the same sins throughout our lives. Whether it's greed or anger or drink or whatever, I'd strongly argue that you're born with certain weaknesses and that's that. I know I always go to Confession for the same things.
The last time I went to Adoration, engrossed in the latest chapter of my Sisyphean battle with xxx, God said to me, "It's OK. Just keep fighting." And so I did, with more success some days and less on others.
Because I've continued to fight, I've been open to finding any advantage I can in my battle. I recently experienced a series of unrelated epiphanies that might just make my fight a little easier.
In public talks, I like to say that having goals changes your life. Having goals makes you see the world in a different way. You're always on the alert for opportunities to further your goals. Fighting sin seems to be like that. Beating Sparky, even temporarily, is a goal. Because I kept fighting, I was able to assemble my epiphanies into something more powerful than any of them alone.
There, was that vague enough? Yeah. Pretty much. Keep fighting. That's the only thing I wanted to say today.
Well, that and God bless.
I was struggling with an ongoing problem and really frustrated with myself that I wasn't further along in my progress. In a moment of reflection on the Word, I was reminded/told that continuing the fight was in itself a small victory in the battle.
ReplyDelete"Father, I always confess the same sins!"
ReplyDelete"What, you want you should be inventing new ones?"
Ivyan, I think you've said it very well. Just being willing to fight what is probably a losing battle is itself a victory and an offering to God.
ReplyDeleteFoxie - :-)